I’ve been pretty into voyeurism recently…watching people, you know, fuck and shit, stuff like that. Spending a lot of time by the window of my apartment with a weird combination of binocs, a telescope and some mirrors. Just getting drunk on Riesling, sitting on a stool, with a bottle of Viagra in one hand and a bottle of Jergens in the other, just waiting for something “romantic” to happen. Heh. Some nights when nothing pans out, I’ll just wait and wait and wait for a husband to come home and kiss his wife on the cheek and that’s enough, i’m like, fuck it, I’m going at it. I tie a belt around my neck and I’m just fucking strangling myself until my consciousness is fading. Right before I pass out I climax all over myself, soon to wake up feeling sticky and hungover.