well fuck bros…. for those of you that remember my friend was coming over to get in a hot tub and I wasn’t sure if she wanted to fuck or not. Well she came and went. And I fucked up…

It was a great night. She came over, we went on a hike, grabbed some drinks and snacks, then hopped in the hot tub. THE ONLY REASON I DID WHAT I DID was because it almost seemed like she was lingering…she said she had to go like 5 times but still stayed in the water…

She even asked me what color bikini bottoms she should wear… black or red? I chose black. And god damn… her fucking ass…fucking incredible

So we got down to the last drink, she had to pee and said it was her time to get out of here, but i managed to get her back in the hot tub. She shared the last drink with me. And I asked her… what would you do if I kissed you? She said she would say no, but she’s glad I asked instead of just going for it…

Well……………………………… then a cascade of bullshit came flowing out. But it was honest. Like truly the most fucking honest I’ve ever been. I told her I would marry her in a heart beat(I know a lot of you will say you fucking psycho or faggot or whatever but its what she wants at our age) and have how ever many kids she wanted. I went on and on how I felt about her. And I told her it didn’t matter how long it took her to give me an answer, just that the door would always be there. She asked me, how long have you been feeling this way? Locking eyes with me this entire time. I told her since the last few time we hung out, even though it was really when I first saw her. It just dawned on me that, THIS. How her and I get along is so fucking rare in this world that it has to mean something. It genuinely is so fucking rare to be yourself, speak yourself and have something question your ideals instead of judging them.