Like seriously, all the shit I find is ship art and the only time I think of futaba is when I feel guilty not thinking about her. As well as that, I have been going through some seriously bad times recently. This includes my sexuality and who I truly think I am. I have just been going through tough times and I find it so difficult to think about my little cinamon bun. Not only that, but I have been bullied in school so much more recently and have had a few horrible incidents in vrchat (including close to virtual rape). I have just found it an absolute nightmare to think of futaba, and how much of a piece of shit I am for feeling like breaking up in a semi real relationship. I’m such an asshole, please give me any advice