Put simply, I am a zoo, I’m certainly not proud of it and if anything I really hate myself for it. I have no attraction to humans whatsoever so I don’t really have any outlet both romantically and sexually… I used to have a horse (what I am attracted to) named bluey, she was my world and meant everything to me… se was the only partner I have ever loved and I felt at home when around her. She unfortunately however stumbled down a hill and snapped her neck, I cried over her body for 12 hours straight, feeling my whole world crumble around me… I have still not recovered from her loss. I really don’t know how I can survive like this, living in constant fear, anxiety, imposed silence and loneliness… when people have so much hate towards zoo’s, I wonder what they think will become of us, do they think we will just disappear? That hate is going to make us more responsibly handle our urges??? I’m not sure it works that way… I have slowly been spiralling down into a worse mental state, I recently tried coming out to a very close friend about all this who has prevented me committing suicide in the past, and I have also helped with their own mental health. Yet I got fucking rejected… I don’t know where I am turn left, my future is so- so bleak and having any sort of relationship is a distant dream. I don’t know, I don’t see any point in living if all you get is more reasons to not live, im walled in… Please help…