I have something to say to R and it is realy hard for me to say
I know we make jokes about it and stuff but
I am actauly Bi-sexaul
So yeah I guess I am gay
I know I picked a bad time to tell you because its april fools day and you will think I am messing with you
But I am not
This is the only day I can feel comfortable enough to expose who I realy am because I have a way to back out of it
IF it goes south
But if you are OK with it
Then I am going to come out to the group tomorrow
Cause I feeel like I could having you behind me
But only with you behind me
So if you are onboard with this please call me
I just need to talk about it
Unless you want me to run into the arms of a new lover
Please R come online
I just want to be fucked in the ass
or in our case have someone tell me how to fuck myself in the ass
Please
Thats all I ask for
Its not much
You know
Could you ever help me out with that
That would be so nice
Cause I love you
And I want to enjoy intimant time together
Ands that how i realy get off
Why will you not respond
I just want my ass fucked
Is that to much to ask
Is it
I mean god damn I am sure there a ton of chicks that would peg me as a hot guy
Am i not right
What ever
Do you at least understand
R
I mean I am not asking for much am I
I saw that you started to respond
how can you play with my emotions when I am in a state like this
“R_ is typing…” a beacon of hope in a dark unloving world. Then it disapates as quick as it comes, and the darkness reconveens in my mind.
Home alone… a stark reminder of my life, once a few more years have been consumed by the march of time, will be.
Consumption
It is what enthralls us as humans(edited)
It is what fuels manifest desitiny
Space exploration
Creativity
Creation
But most of all Destruction(edited)
And we are the drving force of this consumption
but it will reers its ugly head back at us
in time
if we let it
or even if we don’t
Control
What we all strive for
What some of us gift
What we all truely lack
What we all lie to our selves about when we drift into
Sleep\
More unknown then the stars above us
MIssunderstood
Required
We dream to forget why we are sleeping
We sleep to forget why we are dreaming
a cycle
Everything is(edited)
if you cut it down
Or up for that matter
What goes around comes around
Or does it
when you destroy its source of
Energy
Something we consume
Something we strive for
Something that must be conserved
Never truely dispates
Just lives on in another form
Comforting
For a moment
The thought that we will continue
Continue after death
After life
And befor it as well
And yet we still wait
As though we know what it means to wait
Wait for a reply
Just a glimor of hope
That the little inticator of textual comunication will bare a response
something anything
But it will be nothing
It is always nothing
Even if it is sent
just drible
just humans atempt to be something
something more
something unhuman
everything
We think so highly of our thoughts
Even if they have no real power
To us they are a total
And we make an effort
An effort to share them(edited)
To grace another with our mind
And to recieve the mind of another
Is that what love is
Or is it just what humans have cracked it up to be
IT can never be what it is cracked up to be
A sylogism
A misspelling
A typo
common
In a stream of conciousness
some things get lossed in the cracks
And we allow it
It is OK
All I ever wanted was a backboard girl
one that could act as though I was smart
Act as though I held value
Acted as though anything us humans think has value
And give me things to think on
What I got was much more then that
Enough to fill a couple hand fulls
More then a hand full
Nice
Thoughtful
These are positive human quailities
Smart
Engageing
How long will this go on for
Can it go on forever(edited)
Thats stupid
Nothing can
But can it go on for a lifetime
Thats stupid
Nothing ever last that long
Love gets degraded by the winds of time
The the edges not softened
But sharpened
To a point
To a blade
To a edge
And yet we try in vain to hold on
As it cuts deep into our hands
Into our minds
we try in vain to hold on
And yet we can’t
we try to extend a moment
We try to extend a thought
A idea
A concecpt
A
A
A Hope
A prayer
And yet it will end
as everything does
With a break up
Death or deforce
And yet the moment goes on
For mins longer sometimes years
Sometimes Days
Sometimes hours
Sometimes weeks
Sometimes Months
Months
Or some time other little thought of units of time
Parsects for example
Some may say that is not a unit of time
I say it is a unit of love
As love will traverse the distance
And it may take time
12 or less
Less then 12
Its been 12
The moment is fleeting
The line of thought running cold
The idea I was playing at is getting cold
And yet I keep going
Keep posting
In vain hope for what
A response
Is that what I am after
Is that what I want
No
I am not looking for a response
I am simple looking to be fucked in the ass
I am tripping real bad right now
Falling in fact
Falling in love with you
Shitty statement aside I took pills I should not have
Like above the max limit for daily dosage for mulitible diffrent pills
LIke 6 sudifet
7 Ibeprofin
A few asprin
Some meiltonin
Washed down with rum
Also know as the Micheal Jackson
Cocktail
I just relized
Because of the date
This seems like a joke
Its not
I acutaly just made a bad decision
It can happen any day of the year
I just grabed the liquor equivilent of rubing alchol
41.5% alch by volume
So what are you up to
Why do you have to do that
With the pretend to type thing
Unless its gliched
If I get a reply I can stop my yammering
OK so I just downed like a quarter bottle of rum
And am not thinking strait
So if you could stop me from saying stupid thing
By just saying something
thats all I ask
I guess not
Thats fine I guess
I mean what ever]
Its simply the floating of the boat
And or scroat
As the Sylgiasm goes
I will enjoy my Phycilogical Doc
About Quadtuplits
Thats a typo
I am fine with that
I am making many escape while typing
but I am going back to fix them
I blame my intoxication
I need to stop drinking
It will cause me nothing but strife
As it did my father
And mother for that matter
I mean it is bond to spiral
It is the way of things
I mean your useual repsonse would be fine
I.E “Oh.” “Oh!” “Okey!” “Okay.” “Okie.” “Okey!” “Kool!”
“Kool.”
“Kewl.”
“Kewl!”
“Cool.”
“Cool!”
“Ye.”
“Yee.”
“Nice”
“Thx”
Ext
The rest of the responses vary
But I could make an AI with the same of envolvement for you
Just respond wit haste or lack of it
With one of those preset responses
“I am going to need lots of Prosac.” The mother in the docuementy i am watching
What is love
Baby don’t hurt me
Baby don’t hurt me
No more
I will call you Baby
as you do not like it
I will not rather
I can not tell if I am watching a video on twins and seeing double
Posible
I guess
I wish
I am so out of it right now
I need a cigirete
Ciggirette
And I have one
Good for me
Let me smoke
Oh I do not need to ask
I just will
Problem solved
Solved problem
This 5 year old gets more tail then me
Damn it
God damn it
I wish I was god sometimes
Do you ever wish you were god
IT would be magical
Would it not
To control everyhting
I wish I was some times
I am now watching a documentry on Tourettes
Why can you not just do me a soild and respond
I would love that
SO much
I am going to piss
Damn it
I missed it
You probly were trying to meme me
Were you not
I just want to talk
What if I ansewerd
If I was lieing about the bathroom
Comeon
I just want to be told how to fuck myself in the ass
Thats all I want
In life
In this moment
overall
This video i am watching is useing rocket man acostic no lyrics in the background
Why
I have my head sideways
ANd I cna not ajust
I fixed
People are looking at the Tourettes kids
I feel with them
Johny shouts the swears
NOt me
Johny
To quotes the tourettes kids
Well I do not think I could even jerk off
Cause I do not have the hand eye right now
Like I can bairly walk to the bathroom
I almost fell down
I love you
April fools
Or is it
I can not even bite my nails
strait
This air horn is going off
or on
I am turned on
I wish
Why am I sending these
I should jsut shut up
And sleep
But I can not
I did take some sleeping pills
To much for that matter
But I a fine i think
I have not died yet
It would seem
If this wall of text was what I left you with waht would you think
IT would post mordem serve as a cry for health
Help rather
Froaidian slip
People would see it as a long though out note of self harm
that led to death
Like I was spillng my thoughts
“My nan came with us. And said is there a posiblity it is Tourettes.”
Baller level
I think alchol flows through the system
At a rapid pase
Cause I need to piss
I will be back
I pissed out my window
With vague hope that you would call me
And I would be able to ansew
Finaly
Did you remove your coment
Cause I saw it
So I can go to sleep
I am lieing
I must finish my doc
Then I will masterbate and sleep
I get on my Guild channel
In 5 secs
“Are you drunk D”
Twins
What was that text you sent me
Supposed to me
Honest Abe you cheating on ne
Me
April 1st is over
I am getting real stressed about this
Why do you hate mr
Me
I should just end it
Cut out the shit
Just be real
Best orgasm of my lige
Life
I am being catphished
That’s why you do not s3nd pics
Is it like not
Damn
Easy like sunday morning