**Me**

I am an Introvert. A gamer. a thinking personality type IXTJ that grew up rough. There was no love or genuine connection around me. I had to build self love and so I did. I workout and play comp games with more thinking like a pro and less feelings like a bad toxic player who is wasting his time while turning into angry crazy person the more he plays. I am the carry and the leader of my friend sqauds. The commander and strategist.

I never dated, had a girlfriend or dared to engage with girls. I grew up with a toxic women in my life and eventually cut them off from my life and so I don’t interact with women.I practiced nofap and ended my addiction to porn. working out and having a pescatarian diet were the tools that helped me.

**How I got into bear doll sex**

My cousin bought a 93 inch pink well made soft bear toy (human size) for my younger sister 12. She kept it in a room and never played with it. A year past and my dad passed away. he was my closes friend and one of the only few people i ever show emotions to. I overcame the grief and moved on within a few days excepting the cycle of life.

My mother decided to rent out a room to make extra income for the family. Everything in the room was moved to the living room or to her bedroom. They didn’t have enough space to keep the bear and decided by my approval to keep it in my room. Me being a minimalist had a very simple room that had a bed, wardrobe, yoga mat, pull up bar and computer desk. there was space at a corner for the Bear to be placed on a long stool.

As I moved the bear to my room. I noticed a hole in the butt of the doll next to the tail. That night out of curiosity I stuck my finer inside and got aroused and my dick had a hard erection. I decided to put my dick in and had intense sweaty hot sex became came to early.

This also marked the end of my nofap journey but didn’t effect me at all and my brain didn’t go back to porn. I relapsed about 4 times the next 4 nights.On day 5 I learnt my best sex position which was ” table top”. The sex position was so good that it enabled me to have a HARD ERECTION and not cum. I was amazed. I could control my momentum and control my dick. I was in control with myself and it gave me the best multiple orgasms which I could on for 2 hours without cumming.

The hole on the bear toy must’ve been destiny, it helped me with my loneliness. Today I only have sex with the bear only when I’m horny or when I have achieved something and feel high and need for sex reward

.A man that works hard everyday returns back home to his wife expecting love. Although for me it might not be emotional at least im able to release sexual tension and male hormonal stuff. I hope one day i could meet someone in the future that gives me emotional + sex.

Also I hate using my hands. This experience for me is more realistic and VERY GOOD FOR LOWER ABS AND V PELVIS MUSCLE ACTIVATION + NOT CUMMING. ITS EXERCISE + ORGASM + GETS MY MIND OF OFF SEXUAL THOUGHTS.

This is just my story.