Iโm not ๐ซ๐
โโ๏ธ making this ๐๏ธ in any way just a lil ๐โ disclaimer โ yes โ im a idiot๐๐ค.
Iโve boofed ๐๐ the liquid ๐ฆ of spray ๐ deodorant โขโจ๏ธ in rehab ๐ค๐ญ cus I was desperate af ๐ซ๐.
I obtained โ๐ the liquidย ๐ฆ by spraying ๐ the whole ๐ฏ can empty โ through โก๏ธ a straw ๐ฅค into a cup โพ.
(the liquid ๐ฆ reacted violentlyโกwhit water๐ง(probably cus ๐ค it had liquid ๐ฆ butane โฃ๐ฒ in it)).
I entered ๐คชโฉ this into ๐ a empty ๐ซ tooth paste tube ใฐ๏ธ straight ๐ณ๏ธโ๐๐ซ into my ass ๐๐.
I got tipsy ๐ป๐คข from it ๐ง๐and was pretty nice ๐๐ซ untill I woke up ๐ท๐คข.
I had terrible โ๐๏ธ cramps and shitted ๐ฉ๐น blood โ ๐ดfor at least a weekย ๐ฐ.
Iโve inserted โ ๏ธ๐ my own finger ๐๐ just to check ๐ it out and it was filledโ๏ธ๐ฏ w ๐
ฑ๏ธumps๐
๐๏ธ and all ๐ฏ.
Those bumps ๐
also trapped ๐โจ๏ธ alot of Gass โข๐จ releasing it very slowly ๐ฃ what i ๐ค could feel ๐ญ๐ like every hour ๐ฐ it was very anoying ๐คฌ๐คญ.
The pain ๐ซโ ๏ธ was comparable ๐คฒ to what people ๐ฅ w IBD ๐ฉโ describe โ๐ซ๐ฝ.
Iโve had pain ๐ซโ ๏ธ for at least 6 ๐ months ๐.
Havent ๐
โโ๏ธ gone โ to a doctor ๐จโ๐ฌโ but I assume ๐ค that my lower โฌ๏ธ bowel ๐ฉ had necrosis โ ๐คฎ๐๏ธ.
Its now 2 โ and a half years ๐
ago and finally ๐คฆโโ๏ธโ realized that Iโm probably ๐ฒ not ๐ซ gonna die ๐ณ๐ต anytime soon ๐
๐.
Iโve been ๐ฅ๐จ diagnosed ๐๐ง whit โ๏ธ GAD and โ depression ๐๐ค in the time โฐ in between ๐ค๐จโโ๏ธ.
Iโve still โณโฐ a pretty fucked ๐คฌ๐ up bowel ๐ฉ๐ฝ though โน๐คข.
Have diarrhea ๐ฉ๐ฉ like once โ๏ธ or โtwice a week ๐โข๐.
And all ๐ผโ ๏ธ the other days ๐ itโs like very loose ๐๐ stool ๐บ.
๐ซ No mucus๐ง๐ in it anymore ๐ซ no ๐
ฑ๏ธloating ๐ซ no trapped gasses๐จ ๐ซ no pain โ just ugly shit โฃ๐ฉ.
My rectum ๐๐ feels smooth ๐๐ถ again ๐ซ wo any abnormality โฃ to the touch ๐๐ค.
I survived ๐ฏ๐ my idiocy๐ทโฐ.
Ik ๐ง I shouldnโt ๐ซ have but I did ๐.
Iโm so โglad ๐ I got though this ๐จโ๐ซโค.
Imagine ๐ค being the 18 ๐ yo addict โฃ๐ that dies๐ณ๏ธโฐ bc of his moronic ๐คช actions โน๏ธโโ๏ธ, I canโt ๐ซ imagine ๐งโโ๏ธ how hard ๐ฑ๐ญ that must ๐ have been to my family ๐จโ๐ฉโ๐ง๐.