Iโ€™m not ๐Ÿšซ๐Ÿ™…โ€โ™‚๏ธ making this ๐Ÿ†™๏ธ in any way just a lil ๐Ÿ“โ›” disclaimer โ›” yes โ— im a idiot๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿค•.

Iโ€™ve boofed ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ’‰ the liquid ๐Ÿ’ฆ of spray ๐Ÿ”Š deodorant โ˜ขโ™จ๏ธ in rehab ๐Ÿค’๐Ÿšญ cus I was desperate af ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ‘Œ.

I obtained โœ‹๐Ÿ›ƒ the liquidย ๐Ÿ’ฆ by spraying ๐Ÿ”Š the whole ๐Ÿ’ฏ can empty โ›” through โžก๏ธ a straw ๐Ÿฅค into a cup โ›พ.
(the liquid ๐Ÿ’ฆ reacted violentlyโšกwhit water๐Ÿ’ง(probably cus ๐Ÿค” it had liquid ๐Ÿ’ฆ butane โ˜ฃ๐Ÿ˜ฒ in it)).

I entered ๐Ÿคชโฉ this into ๐Ÿ”œ a empty ๐Ÿšซ tooth paste tube ใ€ฐ๏ธ straight ๐Ÿณ๏ธโ€๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿšซ into my ass ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜.

I got tipsy ๐Ÿป๐Ÿคข from it ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ‘and was pretty nice ๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿ˜ซ untill I woke up ๐Ÿ˜ท๐Ÿคข.

I had terrible โŒ๐Ÿ†˜๏ธ cramps and shitted ๐Ÿ’ฉ๐Ÿ‘น blood โ˜ ๐Ÿ”ดfor at least a weekย ๐Ÿ•ฐ.


Iโ€™ve inserted โš ๏ธ๐Ÿ–– my own finger ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ‘ just to check ๐Ÿ‘€ it out and it was filledโ‰๏ธ๐Ÿšฏ w ๐Ÿ…ฑ๏ธumps๐Ÿ”…๐Ÿ†•๏ธ and all ๐Ÿ’ฏ.

Those bumps ๐Ÿ”… also trapped ๐Ÿ–โ™จ๏ธ alot of Gass โ˜ข๐Ÿ’จ releasing it very slowly ๐Ÿ’ฃ what i ๐Ÿค• could feel ๐ŸŽญ๐Ÿ›‘ like every hour ๐Ÿ•ฐ it was very anoying ๐Ÿคฌ๐Ÿคญ.

The pain ๐Ÿšซโš ๏ธ was comparable ๐Ÿคฒ to what people ๐Ÿ‘ฅ w IBD ๐Ÿ’ฉโ˜  describe โœ๐ŸŽซ๐Ÿšฝ.

Iโ€™ve had pain ๐Ÿšซโš ๏ธ for at least 6 ๐Ÿ“ˆ months ๐Ÿ—“.
Havent ๐Ÿ™…โ€โ™‚๏ธ gone โœ” to a doctor ๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ”ฌโš• but I assume ๐Ÿค” that my lower โฌ‡๏ธ bowel ๐Ÿ’ฉ had necrosis โ˜ ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿ†˜๏ธ.

Its now 2 โœŒ and a half years ๐Ÿ“… ago and finally ๐Ÿคฆโ€โ™‚๏ธโŒ› realized that Iโ€™m probably ๐ŸŽฒ not ๐Ÿšซ gonna die ๐Ÿณ๐Ÿ˜ต anytime soon ๐Ÿ’…๐Ÿ˜.

Iโ€™ve been ๐Ÿฅ๐Ÿจ diagnosed ๐Ÿ’Š๐Ÿง  whit โ˜๏ธ GAD and โœŒ depression ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿค’ in the time โฐ in between ๐Ÿค•๐Ÿ‘จโ€โš•๏ธ.

Iโ€™ve still โณโฐ a pretty fucked ๐Ÿคฌ๐Ÿ”ž up bowel ๐Ÿ’ฉ๐Ÿšฝ though โ˜น๐Ÿคข.

Have diarrhea ๐Ÿ’ฉ๐Ÿ’ฉ like once โ˜๏ธ or โœŒtwice a week ๐Ÿ“†โ˜ข๐Ÿ˜Ÿ.
And all ๐Ÿšผโš ๏ธ the other days ๐Ÿ“† itโ€™s like very loose ๐Ÿ”†๐Ÿ‘ stool ๐ŸŽบ.

๐Ÿšซ No mucus๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ˜› in it anymore ๐Ÿšซ no ๐Ÿ…ฑ๏ธloating ๐Ÿšซ no trapped gasses๐Ÿ’จ ๐Ÿšซ no pain โš• just ugly shit โ˜ฃ๐Ÿ’ฉ.

My rectum ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘ feels smooth ๐Ÿ–๐Ÿ‘ถ again ๐Ÿšซ wo any abnormality โ˜ฃ to the touch ๐Ÿ‘†๐Ÿค—.

I survived ๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ˜Ž my idiocy๐Ÿšทโšฐ.
Ik ๐Ÿง  I shouldnโ€™t ๐Ÿšซ have but I did ๐Ÿ˜ž.
Iโ€™m so โ—glad ๐Ÿ™ I got though this ๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿซโค.

Imagine ๐Ÿค” being the 18 ๐Ÿ”ž yo addict โ˜ฃ๐Ÿ’‰ that dies๐Ÿณ๏ธโšฐ bc of his moronic ๐Ÿคช actions โ›น๏ธโ€โ™‚๏ธ, I canโ€™t ๐Ÿšซ imagine ๐Ÿง˜โ€โ™‚๏ธ how hard ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ญ that must ๐Ÿ˜ž have been to my family ๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€๐Ÿ‘ง๐Ÿ˜”.