Two things…..
#1… I’m going to hell, and I don’t event believe in that stuff 😭
#2. I already know what the right thing to do is, I’m just venting and need to get it off my chest.

So, I decided to go out dancing, by myself last night. I’m walking about the club and I make eye contact with my old friends with benefits. The second we laid eyes on each other, I knew he was coming back to my place. (Just remember though out this story, my intentions were not to take him home or ask him or anything, I just knew by seeing him that it would happen)…… so we danced our asses off, for old times sake. Well, right before we left, Pony by Genuine came on and he takes me to the dance floor, and was touching me like I ain’t been touched since I last saw him…. the music ended, he paid his tab, and without any words spoken, we walked to my car.

I get it, y’all are probably like….. well, how is this gonna make you go to hell…… ummmm, well, he’s married 😭 that’s how. We have been friends with benefits for 6 years, and even when they were just bf/gf and engaged. The last time I saw him was almost a year ago.

Now, that’s bad enough, I know. But it gets worse…. gah, I’m so burning in the depths of hell over this….
We did it, for hours last night, hours. We have always been 2 of the most sexually compatible people. That’s why I cannot resist him, even though I should.
(I’d give details about the amazing sex, but y’all hate me already, so I’ll just get to the point here)
He came in me, and though we both have never thought we were fertile, a plan B pill is the right option. However, my baby fever is so far through the roof, that I really want to risk it. Even though, I’m not going to, I just reeeeeeallllly want to.

Y’all don’t have to comment, I’m not looking for advice, I just need to get it off my chest that I’m a terrible, dirty, hooker 🤦🏽‍♀️

I’m such a good person, and curve any guy who even talks to multiple girls. But I cannot resist this man, I just can’t. Never have been able to. He could call me at 3am, and I’d answer. I’m fucking terrible 😭