Look man, this is not sigma or cool. It’s actually cringe. I don’t want to dog on you, but from seeing your comments on here, your not proving anything other than that your a goofy edge lord. Your not special by having these thoughts, quite frankly lots of other people play out scenarios like this (maybe not specifically murdering innocent folks, but along the lines of self defense). If you are struggling with something, seek help. Talk to someone about your anger and hurt. That would be the “sigma” thing to do instead of making a fool of yourself. Hey, you can even talk to me as I myself do struggle with mental health. The point I’m trying to make is to please check yourself. God Bless.